a new chapter

This week we realized we have been PAYING for me to work. Part of this is due to the fact that I use a tank of gas every week because my day looks like this: home> daycare> work and then work> daycare> home. So starting May 13th I will be a temporary stay at home mom! I am hoping to pick up an odd job here or there (maybe baby sitting another child part time during the week to earn some extra money) but we will see how it goes. God has really given me a peace about staying home with Tristan and I am starting to feel excited about it instead of sad. I have really loved my current job but since Tristan has been born I really have not been able to get back into the swing of things at work. I think God was just nudging me to notice that financially and emotionally it isn't really worth it right now. Our house has looked terrible since I have returned to work and I have maybe cooked once or twice for my husband since Jan. I feel like being a good wife and mother right now is the most important and for me the way to do that is to take a break from working. Financially I really need to get a full time position, but that will have to wait until I am done breast feeding Tristan because I don't want to tackle breast feeding AND working full time...no thank you!